Showing posts with label thoughts. Show all posts
Showing posts with label thoughts. Show all posts

Wednesday, 18 March 2020

This Too Shall Pass

Good morning everyoneee~
Hope you guys all doing ok and please stay at home because as you know many countries including Indonesia are in quarantine or keeping social distance for a while because of Corona virus / Covid 19. Stay safe, always remember to wash your hands and keep a healthy & clean lifestyle. Please avoid the crowd and avoid meeting people as much as possible, social distance is important right now to keep everyone including yourself safe. I know many people still have to go out for work,etc because some of them can't work from home but please stay safe, don't forget to wash your hands and put your mask on if possible :)

To be honest at first I can still relax and trying not to worried much about this but since Indonesia started to have a Covid 19 case, I became a bit worried too. Well, if you read my previous post you might know about my health condition and how my immune system is not in good condition lately. I'm trying to keep my healthy lifestyle as usual, including wash my hands too. In my last appointment with my doctor, he told me to avoid crowded place / meeting people including making contact with them (shake hands, etc) and always wear a mask. But don't worry guys, I'm doing ok and my health condition been in normal state lately Alhamdulillah (at least not as worst as last year). This is just a precaution & protection during this time of 'chaos' because of Covid 19.

We can do this guys. This too shall pass, Insha Allah, Aamiin :)

Friday, 7 December 2018

Roller Coaster Mood

Having roller coaster mood lately. My mood been up and down and sometimes makes me so tired and a litle bit frustated. Sometimes I feel happy and enjoy my life, but sometimes I feel so worried about everything and having a bad mood.

I think this is not anxiety disorder or anything, it just I'm having mood swing. But it does bother me sometimes. I feel like I want to run away from everything, even sometimes I want to cry without any reason... don't know why. I want to scream loudly and crying. 

I know I should not be like this. Sometimes I feel like I'm not grateful for what I have. I have a nice family, nice best friends, having a nice job but sometimes I'm such a coward. A small problem can makes me feel frustated. Eventhough I know that this is normal in life if we have a problem. It's impossible to have no problem at all in our life. but... sometimes I feel so scared over a small problem. And this is not good.

Why I'm being so coward? why I always like this? why??
I'm supposed to be more grateful. to be more confident in anything and to be more stronger to face any problem in my life. but.. it did not happen sometimes.... :(
Sometimes I worry about my future, I don't know what I want to do while my friends has achieved something in their life and pursue their dreams. I know.. I know, everyone have their own time. We have different time and path in our life but.. I just feel like I really don't know what I want in my life. I have no plan at all about my future. And now here I am being so coward about my small problems. I hate it, really :( Other people have bigger problem than mine and they still fight over it, but look at me, being worried just because of small things.

haha sorry for writing such a depression things like this in the morning. I just want to write in here and pour out what was on my mind lately ^^
I will keep doing my best and praying.
Eyerything is gonna okay, everything is gonna be alright, Amin.


Thursday, 28 April 2016

Today's Quote

"Every people have their own blessing, stop counting others and start to count yours. People do have their own battles" - Evita Nuh


Sometimes I see many pople who often counting other people's blessing. Like he/she wanted to be like someone else. "I want to be like you, you are so lucky. You have everything I want" or "Lucky you, you are born in a good / rich family. I'm so jealous" and something like that. Those who said something like that sometimes impose themselves. They are trying to be someone they're admire of, wanted to be as lucky as people they are jealous of. Trying to buy expensive stuff, trying to look like a happy and rich person both in social media or in reality life. People just see the "cover", just see the "lucky" part they said. They do not know about the story behind it. Don't know the struggle or hard work of someone so he/she can get what their want and be as of now. 

The thing is, let's trying to know the story behind every single things. Sometimes the things you called "lucky" did not come by itself. There's hard work and lot's of story behind it. And you don't really know about people that you are jealous of. Maybe she / he have their own struggle in their life you didn't know. Just like Evita Nuh said, people do have their own battles. So yes, let's start to count your own blessing, be thankful of it and keep work hard. This is your own life anyway :)

Friday, 4 September 2015

Jenderal Soedirman

Watching Jenderal Soedirman movie on tuesday. Two movies is on my list this month, Battle of Surabaya and Jenderal Soedirman. Really excited to watch this movies! Sadly.. here in this little town they didn't show Battle of Surabaya -__-" when I check the schedule I can't find any cinema which show this movie *sigh*. Then I just know that it only showing in some cinema. Though so, I still go to the cinema to watch Jenderal Soedirman, all alone.. hahaha. Why am I alone? because I want to. My friend's was busy anyway so it's okay to go alone (it reminds me when I'm still in college. I used to go anywhere alone if there's no one can accompany me /  just having me time).

My opinion about Jenderal Soedirman movie is good. Maybe I will give 3,5 stars out of 5 hehe (please remember that this is just my opinion, I'm not an expert in movie things). The story, actor and camera movement was good. Maybe some of you will think that this movie is just an ordinary Indonesian heroes movie but wait till you watch it. Well, you know there's lots of Indonesian movies about history / heroes nowadays, when someone make a movie about some topic like Indonesian heroes and the movie have a good response then everyone else will makes the same thing too. In this case I just hope that this movie (Jenderal Soedirman) have a good story and didn't makes me disappointed. The result is, I'm quite enjoy it. Even makes me thinking about something. 

If I watch this kind of movie, besides it's makes me knows more about Indonesian history it's makes me feel ashamed too. Shame beacuse I feel like I'm nothing compared to those people who fight in colonial era. Sometimes I think, is the offcials in our goverment really did not have pudency when they betrayed their promises?? shame on you.. I feel sorry for peoples who fight for the independence of this country :( 

Jenderal Soedirman drawing inspired from photo by Adipati Dolken

Monday, 12 May 2014

Opini

       Akhir-akhir ini agak sedikit kepikiran tentang sesuatu haha. Bicara soal opini atau komentar semua orang setidaknya pasti pernah beropini atau mengomentari sesuatu baik itu di dunia nyata (dalam kehidupan sehari-hari) atau di dunia maya sekalipun. Siapa yang tak kenal dunia maya / internet sekarang ini? rasa-rasanya hampir semua kalangan sudah familiar dengan yang satu ini bukan?. Orang bisa melakukan apa saja di dunia maya, memposting foto, video, status sampai mengomentari suatu hal.
      Saya ingat, saya pernah memposting sesuatu tentang kritik / opini di entri sebelumnya. Saya pernah berkata bahwa jika seseorang ingin mengomentari atau mengkritik seseorang / suatu hal tolong gunakanlah otak dan hati anda. Pilihlah kata-kata yang baik dan jika bisa berilah pula solusinya, jangan hanya bisa mengkritik saja. Saya masih sering merasa miris akhir-akhir ini, sering sekali saya melihat akun media sosial seseorang atau bahkan public figure dimana ada saja seseorang yang berkomentar pedas, terkesan ngasal atau bahkan sok tahu saat memberi komentar atau kritik.
      Saat seseorang / public figure itu memposting sesuatu yang kira-kira akan "memancing" orang-orang untuk berkomentar selalu ada saja komentar yang menurut saya *maaf kata* tidak cerdas. Padahal menurut saya atau orang lain hal itu biasa saja atau kita hanya perlu merubah cara pandang kita terhadap postingan tersebut. Contohnya saja, saat seorang fashion blogger memposting aksesoris atau pajangan yang bergambar mata satu / mata yang berkedip, akan ada saja orang yang berkata "Iluminati!" atau "Itu kan iluminati! kontroversi orang Yahudi!" dan lain sebagainya. Hal pertama yang saya lakukan saat membaca komentar tersebut hanyalah menghela nafas atau bahkan geleng-geleng kepala, mengapa? Yah karena menurut saya tidak semua hal-hal yang berhubungan dengan mata satu / mata yang berkedip itu iluminati kan? Bahkan apakah orang yang mengomentari dan menyebut itu iluminati itu paham betul mengenai iluminati itu sendiri?             Saya sendiri memang bukan orang yang serba tahu dan paham mengenai berbagai macam hal, tapi saya yakin bahwa segala sesuatu itu terkadang perlu kita lihat dari berbagai macam sudut pandang. Jangan hanya sebelah mata atau satu sisi saja.
      Saya akui, terkadang saya juga masih suka terbawa cara pandang orang kebanyakan dimana ketika melihat sesuatu yang "ganjil" atau "salah" saya merasa ingin berkomentar atau ingin berkata bahwa hal itu dilarang dan lain sebagainya. Tapi makin lama, sebagai manusia yang terus tumbuh dan berkembang baik dalam hal fisik dan psikis saya mulai mencoba melihat suatu hal dari berbagai macam sudut pandang atau setidaknya dari sudut pandang yang berbeda dari sebelumnya. Sebenarnya sering sekali saya lihat di dunia maya mengenai komentar tidak cerdas ini, terutama pada akun seorang public figure. Sedih saja, kenapa terkadang orang Indonesia itu begitu berapi-api mengomentari / mengkritik sesuatu tetapi tanpa ilmu atau dasar yang jelas.. kalaupun pakai ilmu terkadang mereka ini terkesan sok benar atau caranya tidak "indah".
      Tidak, saya menulis ini tidak untuk dianggap paling benar atau apapun, ini hanya opini saya saja, sekedar pemikiran. Saya sendiri masih sering melakukan kesalahan, yah saya hanya manusia biasa bukan? hahaha. Saya hanya ingin bahwa orang-orang bisa lebih bijak dalam bertindak. Sebelum mengomentari sesuatu cobalah anda berhenti sejenak untuk berpikir dan melihat dari sudut pandang yang berbeda. Kalaupun ternyata postingan orang itu memang salah, tolong berikanlah opini / nasihat dengan cara yang cerdas :) Cerdas disini tidak harus terkesan pintar atau menggunakan istilah-istilah ilmiah, tetapi berkomentarlah dengan sopan dan gunakan alasan yang logis dan tidak berlebihan.

Semoga kedepannya orang-orang bisa lebih bijak lagi dalam berkomentar ya :) Amin

Wednesday, 19 March 2014

Something About Politics

Politics, a word that actually I don't like it. I rarely use this word even talking about this with people whether with friends or family but in this entry I want to write my opinion about politics. I don't know exactly since when I do not like all about politics. maybe it because I often hear so many bad news about that so I became dislike this thing. AIthough I'm not an expert in this field but I think politics is full of lies and sometimes (or always?) cruel. those people in the political world is full of lies, acting like nice people, they are such an good actor. They were laughing behind their mask. fool other people. I know maybe not all politicians like that but those politicians with bad attitude has ruined everything about politics world. that's why people like me became hate those kind of things in their life.
Lucky me when the presidential election was held 4 years ago I didn't came to voting because I'm not old enough for elections :p. but yes, I must vote for this time. Elections will be held next month and this is my first elections in my life haha. to be honest, in the begining I didn't want to vote for this elections (all elections for more precisely :p) but as time goes by the more I realized that this was not a good decision. I heard so many news about how important our 'voice' is in the elections. Golput (Golongan Putih / abstensions) is NOT good idea at all. How I hate politics in real life but I know that I must vote in the elections. so yes, I will be vote in next month elections. I hope Indonesia have a better future, better president, better in all aspects. No more 'fake' politicians. Amin.