Roller Coaster Mood

Having roller coaster mood lately. My mood been up and down and sometimes makes me so tired and a litle bit frustated. Sometimes I feel happy and enjoy my life, but sometimes I feel so worried about everything and having a bad mood.

I think this is not anxiety disorder or anything, it just I'm having mood swing. But it does bother me sometimes. I feel like I want to run away from everything, even sometimes I want to cry without any reason... don't know why. I want to scream loudly and crying. 

I know I should not be like this. Sometimes I feel like I'm not grateful for what I have. I have a nice family, nice best friends, having a nice job but sometimes I'm such a coward. A small problem can makes me feel frustated. Eventhough I know that this is normal in life if we have a problem. It's impossible to have no problem at all in our life. but... sometimes I feel so scared over a small problem. And this is not good.

Why I'm being so coward? why I always like this? why??

I'm supposed to be more grateful. to be more confident in anything and to be more stronger to face any problem in my life. but.. it did not happen sometimes.... :(

Sometimes I worry about my future, I don't know what I want to do while my friends has achieved something in their life and pursue their dreams. I know.. I know, everyone have their own time. We have different time and path in our life but.. I just feel like I really don't know what I want in my life. I have no plan at all about my future. And now here I am being so coward about my small problems. I hate it, really :( Other people have bigger problem than mine and they still fight over it, but look at me, being worried just because of small things.

haha sorry for writing such a depression things like this in the morning. I just want to write in here and pour out what was on my mind lately ^^

I will keep doing my best and praying.

Eyerything is gonna okay, everything is gonna be alright, Amin.